Dreams…suffocating dreams where you can’t breathe, you can’t speak; you try to do something. Run? Escape? Scream? I don’t know, but no matter how hard you try, you can’t even utter a word.
Actually, I’d like to make a correction, they are called nightmares. Don’t you hate them?
Imagine what it must feel like when this turns into a reality.
We talk a lot about depression, and that’s ironic, because a depressed person never talks about it. Depression is oversold when it comes to public discussions, what people fail to realize is that it’s not some mere emotion, it has multiple folds. Society expects a depressed person to talk, but what they don’t know is that it is far more complicated than simply talk!
A sad person shares his pain, a depressed person is so deep in the dark that he doesn’t even know what he feels anymore. It’s not even a mixture of emotions, everything goes blank, and all that is left is constant high pitched noise in the background. How can one make someone else listen to that noise?
Depression is a monster, first he’ll take away your peace of mind, then he’ll inject you with anxiety, he’ll take away your ability to see the beauty of life, he’ll strip down your sanity, and in the end, when you are nothing more than a hollow shell, he’ll take away your ability to feel, to reason, and most importantly, to believe.
By the time you realize the darkness inside of you, it’s too late. You become a part of that monster. “That explains the dark vibes around me”, you think.
“Things will be fine.”
“You overthink, stop that.”
No, it is not that easy. First of all, this person has nothing left to think about. He doesn’t know what to think. Nothing makes sense anymore. His lungs collapse, they shrink every next second, and the weight on his head increases every other day. Soon enough, he reaches a stage of trance, and it’s ugly. Every moment, he feels like his head is going to explode, and then there will be nothingness. And he craves for that nothingness, because the idea of it feels a lot better than this hurting void.
So yeah! Surprise! Giving advices won’t help.
Hold on to the ones who are going through this, don’t leave their hand, pull them out from this horrid sea of complete darkness.
They don’t see the light because they can’t, not because they don’t want to! And it takes a lot more than just saying “see the light”. Get a f*ckin* torch and walk with them! It’s a sunny day for you, but for this person? He is in a different universe, and this universe hasn’t seen a sunrise in years.